I was safe for awhile, but I left. I went out into the unknown and was immediately thrust into darkness. I am safe for now but I am again all alone. No one to talk to, and feeling it every minute again. You ask why did I leave, because I am determined to do this on my own. no more people controlling my every move, my every thought. I am so tired of being programmed by people that think they actually know me. No one seems to get the fact that I am so sad because of him and him alone. they believe it is only about drinking. FACT: I DON'T DRINK WHEN I AM WITH HIM< ONLY WHEN HE LEAVES. HELLO CAN ANYBODY HEAR ME???????????????