I am scared and feel small. I have been sitting on the couch all day watching movies and feeling bad. I spoke with him yesterday and of course, everything being Roger, he lied to me. Used his daughters as an excuse yet again. He will never change. It actually didn't dawn on me until this morning, which pretty much set the mood for the rest of the day. I really don't know if I want to stay here but I am at a loss of where to go next. And all things being relevant, I am broke. I wish I had enough money to hop on a plane and fly away to somewhere warm and inviting. But I made a commitment here so here I must stay, at least for right now. I am alone in this world and the aloneness is starting to envelope me