I have to often ask myself why I have given such credence to what essentialy is a dead issue? Whywaste even a little bit of my days, and/or nights when I could use utilize this energy in so many ways? Why care at all?

My case in court is coming up fast and I am feel as though I have been dog-paddling for so long, just trying to keep my head above water. I have been doing this alone, he has never been a part of this, That his support was never a part of this most important litigation still hurrts me, and I find myself losing concentration when I reach for the files or have to write a motion, being ever so reminded that he was never there with me for this.

Today is sunny and bright and I am hopeful that I will prevail. I am tired though. Tired and lonely for the affection that I so deserve.  Tired even to keep writing. Caio for now.