It is a better morning today than I had hoped. the peace that I am feeling is welcome after a a week of new experiences and old wounds and too much work. I feel like trying something new and being adventurous, yet I really don't know where to begin. Car shopping and apartment seeking ta the same time have left me a little too aware of my financial state. It is not even here yet, but I have to keep lately. There are people out there who are assuming I have money in my pocket, I do not. How I hate assumptions.

He is online right now, I see him there, searching the cchat rooms, looking for yet another willing sex partner. Someone to use and throw aside. Just his cup of tea.

I prayed for him again this morning, I hope he heard. I will not stop, at least for now. Prayers are al I have left of him. I hope it is enough for me to carry me into tomorrow.