Even though my days are carefully planned out right now I am still missing him in certain ways. It is lonely without a best friend no matter where you are or what you are doing. My time is occupied with positive reinforcements, yet there is still a part of me that yearns for the past and the love and the laughter that I shared with my lover. The safety and security of his arms is something I fear can never be replaced. i would really like to get over this emotion for once and for all, I know it will take time and work. Conscious work. Hard work. I miss you, Rog and I will always love you.

Ciao baby.