I just figured out why I had that dream again, it's very academic, really. I haven't been on line for sometime now and as I have been posting this week, he's there, right on my buddy list. I find myself gazing over to his name every few seconds, seeing him in my mind's eye sitting in his room, smoking way too many cigarettes and checking out profiles in those sleazy chatrooms. Mystery solved, but it will not stop me from going online. I am new and fresh and clean, I am today and not yesterday any longer. I am me.