Happy Halloween, my friend. I'm wondering did you use my decorations and make the house look festive? Where are you and what are you doing? Are you enjoying your life as much as I hope to enjoy mine someday? Have you forgotten all about me? Out of sight out of mind always did seem to work for you before. I was so wrong about you, wasn't I?

I wonder also if I'll ever be as smug as you. I think not. It's just not in my nature to be cruel and yet it seems to come so easily to you. I imagine that's from a lifetime of having your ass kissed by everyone and anyone you met. Your mother, your brother, your ex-wives, your own children. Lying to them is a sin against God and yet there you are, living the life of Riley, telling one lie after the other and never feeling any remorse for it at all.

I pray for you everyday, I really do, but secretly I hope bad things happen to everyone you care about so you might know what's it like to have your heart ripped out time and time again. Ok, so I really don't want bad things to happen, but I want you to feel somewhat responsible for using me and throwing me away and lying to your friends and your family about me for all these years. You need help, and alot of it.

I miss you terribly but I remember how terrible it was when you were around. That alone gives me hope for myself every morning when I get up. To know I don't have to look into your eyes and wonder what bull your throwing around today. You really can't helpself yourself, can you? You just go around aquiescing everyone to feed your primal urges and get what you want for the moment. I hate you so much at times, but it is because I hate you that I realize how much I still care about you. I dream of you and even in my dreams you are lying and cheating and being a dog. Where in the hell do you get off? No wonder your second wife came after you with a knife, I really can't blame her for that one. And you call me crazy? YOU ARE SO OFF BASE IT ISN'T EVEN FUNNY.

So , my dear beautiful gift, Roger, hope you have a Happy Halloween, hope you get all the treats you want, and I'm sure you will, and I hope I come to you tonight in your dreams and haunt you. That would be the best thing I could wish for. See you in la-la land, my friend.