My dear heart:

As I gather myself together this morning and shake off the dreams of last night, I am thinking about how to be happy again. This past week has brought to me new friends and new perspectives and new opportunities. I just need to breathe deep and take the plunge into tomorrow for once and for all. The warmth of the sun on my skin yesterday revitalized my spirit and I found myself happy not to be alone while I was enjoying it. (Although, I do wish someone had informed me how red I was becoming.) Today promises to be just as nice and hopefully I will be laughing again by dusk.

There were times yesterday that my mind went towards the past but I didn't allow myself to linger there for too long. I am quite proud of myself for that, in itself. I am ready to let go now and hope the water is just as warm as the sun when I finally dive in.

I have four new suitors calling me now almost daily, in fact, and I have begun to allot my time accordingly. I have been busy tieing up loose ends in all my affairs and look forward to putting away the demons of my past forever.

Holidays used to unnerve me, for the fact that I was always abandoned whenever they grew near, but now I have plans and commitments and the tv will thankfully be off. Let someone else watch reruns this weekend, I have a brand new life to lead.

So, my dear heart, I am finally healing and I am finally living and I want to thank you for letting me go.