Saturday and I could feel the cold of winter when I first awoke. It has been a long and draining week. I have not heard a word from the him in some time. Not since Tuesday before Thanksgiving. He used me again and I fell for it. It takes a long time for me to recover from any contact with him. He is worse than a drink. With that in mind, I am off today to do something bold and brilliant. There is no time for me to sit and wait any longer, I am done with that. Permanently. He is no longer. I am no longer beholden to him or the promise of any future with him. He has hurt me for the last time.