The stillness of the morning greets me with silent favor. I am grateful for the long dreamless sleep and the welcoming warmth of blankets and hot coffee. The day before me will be busy and hopefully productive, and so I find myself even more grateful for the solitude and quiet of right now. I am reflecting on channeling my immediate serenity into the tasks that lie before me and secretly praying that I handle all the trouble today with grace and wisdom.

Yesterday I was in court. It was somewhat surreal, sitting there, not speaking. Allowing someone else to handle the case for me. I had no reaction to what was being said and was not party to private conversations that were held behind closed doors. My attorney is good. The judge acknowledged me, I think we won yet another round. That's about all I remember. I tried to hold in the tears that started to form around my eyes and I was secure in the knowledge that behind me, right over my left shoulder, was Roger. The next court date was scheduled for November, but something tells me it was just a formality and that in fact that date will not be spent in a courtroom. I have no way of being certain of this, of course, but I feel strongly that just the mere fact that I have representation after going solo with this for so long speaks volumes to opposing counsel. I only wish I could be a fly on the wall when they have to tell the defendants what they are now in for.

Well, the past week seemed to fly by and Friday is finally here. There is a movie I have been eagerly anticipating starting today and I am hoping to see it, providing everything else gets straightened out early in the day.

I have no expectations of seeing Roger this weekend. He was a real trooper this week, taking me into Manhattan to meet with my attorneys and helping me out almost every day , so I will not bother him with phone calls and just let him have his time again. I only hope it is not spent with anyone else romantically. I have no control over anyone else--just myself. Last Sunday, going somewhere to watch the Superbowl held a certain appeal to me, today, however, I foresee wearing my sweats and watching movies in the safety of my own home, occasionally checking in to critique the commercials. Nothing more, nothing less. I went to waldbaum's yesterday and bought my favorite appetizers and so I am set. So says me this morning, who knows how I'll feel on Sunday.

Ok, I guess that's it for now. I think I covered pretty much everything that's been happening in my life to date, I have to start making some calls and getting busy with living. I hope everyone is safe and sound and warm, it is very cold outside.

Peace and Love Always...Me